Fact #207: I want it

On Saturday I'm heading to Chicago to audition for graduate acting programs. I've been preparing for these auditions for a while -- choosing my pieces, working with a coach, tearing them apart and rebuilding them.

I meant to write about it more. I wanted to document my experiences and lessons learned through the process of auditioning for MFA programs.

Then I got nervous. If I spent weeks talking about how excited I was for this opportunity and how ready I was to go back to school, wouldn't it be a hundred thousand million billion times worse if I didn't get offers from any of the programs I wanted? If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it, and all that... If I don't admit I want it, maybe I won't care so much if I don't get it.

But you know what? That's the whole reason I started writing this blog in the first place! To see how I move from place to place, from moment to moment. To chart the progression of the future into the present into the past.

I leave on Saturday. On Sunday I have my first audition. By Thursday I'll be back in Pittsburgh. By March, I should know if I'll be going to school in the fall.

I don't know what's going to happen yet. But I do know this: I want it.


Til tomorrow!